More transparency from me. A sequel of sorts. And well, since I’m detail obsessed and orderly by nature, “Part 2” has to follow “Part 1”, right? If you know me, you are smiling right now. Glad to see that smile. 🙂
So yes, there was a season of sadness. There was prayer to shift my focus from myself to God. Well, God answered my prayer and dramatically shifted my focus from myself, but not in the way I envisioned. Now my job is to complete the transition to place my trust and hope and faith in the only One who can save. Another chapter in my life’s journey, a progression in the process of God drawing me to Himself. I’ve said this before but it bears repeating: My God is so very patient.
A sudden dawning
A shaft of light, a thin line in the darkness
Bright, harsh and hard, piercing, shining for an instant and then gone
But I didn’t see
So focused on my own limited vision in the shadows
My sadness and frustration and what I thought I was seeing
That I didn’t see
So God reached down and pulled me out of myself
To show me that moment when the light revealed the pathway
And the lone figure there
Pieces dangling and barely hanging on
Attached with… ordinary tape and sheer self will
Constant repair for temporary resolution that is no resolution
When there is movement, pieces fall and shatter
Broken and bleeding from picking them up
Taping them back
Through the pain
Oh. My. God.
Completely covered in broken pieces
Made up of broken pieces
No wholeness no healing no help
False hope that denies the enormity of what is
A reassurance of improvement that falls flat
Too busy moving and hurting and bleeding and taping and pretending
I see. I see with painful clarity.
And I see what’s coming
That quick glimpse of bright light shines down the road
Revealing imminent danger
Shards of explosive pain
As everything so painstakingly held together
And I know I need to let go of the scene playing out in my mind in various ways
The outcome is not within my reach
Yet I grasp for what I can’t hold or control or fix
I long to save
But there is only one Savior.
Isaiah 43:11: I, I am the Lord, and besides me there is no Savior.
Zephaniah 3:17: The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.