Author Archives: laurismith88

Time. It invokes many different images for people from all walks of life. So many facets of time shape us. Fond memories of special heartwarming events, both simple and elaborate. Painful memories that we wish we could erase. Life changing moments, both good and bad. Then there is the day-in-day-out time dance. Always forward movement,Continue reading “It’s About Time”

Come with me on a journey of the heart. As a child, I loved to pretend to be someone else, somewhere else, doing something else.  And as an adult, I still love to imagine, but with a different goal.  I find that imagining sometimes helps me understand and relate better.  So come, take a littleContinue reading “He Chose. I Choose. A Journey of the Heart”

This is me and this is where I was recently. Still feeling the sting from the fallout.  And that’s OK.  It’s painful and brutal, but it’s OK because I am never alone.  And I’m working very hard to learn and grow.  Very slow forwards backwards progress.  But I suppose I get an E for effort,Continue reading “The Pretense”

Believing the lies today. Know the truth.  Doesn’t matter. Believing the lies anyway. They are swirling all around me in a feeding frenzy. Feeding on each other and growing stronger and darker and louder. Yet they aren’t shouting. That would be wasted energy. They whisper. Inept. Incapable.  Inadequate.  Incompetent.  Inferior. And the whispers echo everywhere.Continue reading “Believing lies. Knowing Truth.”

More on my current season – this difficult chapter in my twisting turning up down and around life’s journey. Even without details, I hope that many can identify with the struggle.  What it feels like when moving forward involves changing direction while still trying to keep the focus on the goal.  What it really meansContinue reading “Close your eyes and see”

I’m terrible at sports. Any sport.  Not athletic at all.  In P.E. at school, always last to be picked for a team.  Seriously.  Because I had this reputation which was quite accurate: I was a liability to a winning game.  Yes, I’m gifted in a few other areas, but definitely not here. So. There’s this thing I’veContinue reading “A Game of Catch”

Unsettled. Uncertain.  Confused.  Lost.  Hurt.  Angry.  Sad.  Why?  After all, I know the Answers. Yes, I know the right Answers, as I read over and reflect on Biblical truths. But there’s this Grand Canyon sized gap.  Between my daily reality and the Answers.  I’m on one side looking across the canyon at the other side,Continue reading “The Waiting Quest”

Trying and failing. Again. At times when I allow my mind to tread silently down that path and look I see that others make it work And work so beautifully I know I should not compare But it seems that they have that Something That has for so long been unattainable to me. So muchContinue reading “The Battering Ram”

God and I have been in this dialogue for quite some time. As He shapes and molds me and works me over, as I struggle and fight and yearn for release even though I’m free already, as I question and ponder and analyze from every angle and strive, so hard, to understand… When I’m reallyContinue reading “Obedience Training”

God spoke to me. No, not audibly.  But there were words flying around in my mind.  Words about a variety of recent events and reactions and everything I’ve heard and read.  God took me on a little side trip to show me what’s really happening.  I see.  Oh, how I see.  This is what was placed upon my heart this morning.  I choose to share whatContinue reading “The Sad Happy Celebration”